December Dreamboard: The song my heart sings.
This month’s dreamboard was hard won. First I was in great pain and unable to create. Then I was lost in a chorus of whispers in which no clear voice could be heard. But eventually, when I got still enough long enough, I heard one of the song my heart is singing to me now. The verses are not yet clear, but the chorus is “tribe, tribe, tribe.”
Jen says, I can be honest about what I know now. And what I know now is that is need my soulsisters –or mabye my soulsibilings. I need them around me all the time, sending me messages of hope and speaking affirmation in my ears. I feel sheepish about it — this constant need for feedback and assistance and the exchange of ideas. But it’s okay to do things and get support at the same time, rights? As Jena says, is it functional? Because if it is, then why fight it?
It is functional for me, this communal way of life, the ebb and flow, the give and take. Even in the midst of my love of the solitary, I also need this chorus of voices. So I’m trying to listen to my own internal voice of authority and no matter what the experts say about rugged individualism, I’m recognizing that I need a hand to hold.
This month when Suzie asked The Universe what she had in store for me, she pulled the Nine of Cups not once, but twice. Two wishes for me! For the longest time I couldn’t decide what to wish for. I knew one wish had to be “Body”– for my health, for my pain, for the way I see my physical self. But the other one remained elusive. I got stuck in that loop of endless decision-making to which I am so prone. What if I made the wrong choice? What if I spoke the wrong word into being, then regreted wasting my wish?
I believe, even on my most doubtful days, that nothing is ever wasted. Or at least, I try to believe. (“Lord, I believe, help my unbelief.”) So whatever wish I make must be right, right?. And like Jaime says, if you move towards something and you don’t feel like backpeddling as fast as you can, move closer. So this is the word that has settled into my tongue, and I speak it into exisitence. “Tribe.”
Who do you need in your tribe? Truth tellers? Cultivators? Dreamers? Cuddlers? Champions? Warriors? Withmates? All of the above? Do tell…
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I most certainly need dreamers & cuddlers.
As i’m planning another big change in my life, i need some people to dream big with me and be there to guide me along the way.
beautiful post.
tak for sharing.
xo
I need one or more of everything. Having kept to myself for so long, there is no “tribe” to speak of.
I need a friend who I can have good conversation with and who I want to do things with and with whom I enjoy being around. I haven’t had a friend like this in a long time, or they don’t stick around (Or I don’t stick around).
I absolutely loved your introspective approach to this post. Just lovely. I look forward to reading more of the same. Thanks again.
great post about owning what you’re sitting with and holding right now
so who do I want/need in my tribe?
people who will not sell out to stay “like everyone else”
people who are willing to be authentic
i truly believe if we all did that, then we would find our tribes
why it gets so damn confusing is there are too many masked layers to get through
a tribe of truthful livers (as in living, not the body part)
what a gift that would be
I love your blog writings!
I need to make the time to sit down and read more, your archives.
What a gem!
Oh Yippeee.
This was exactly what my lil heart needed to hear today.
Just yesterday I was writing my mother asking “What does it mean to be without soul sisters?” For me it feels like I’m broken. Wingless.
I think for my living communally with other truth-teller women who breathe relationally + spirituality in ways that keep my on my path feels like water and air. Unnegotiable.
Since I moved to California 3 years ago I have felt like my cubords are bare.
I don’t know what to do or what it means.
Why do I feel this pull towards community and what does it mean for me when it’s not fofilled?
What is the Muse murmuring in this moment? I’m straining to hear…….
more people who i can belly-laugh with, at a greater frequency… :)
OMG! OMG! OMG! I had a dream about this and I emailed you all about it before I even saw this blog! I attached pictures in the email after that! Amazingly, the dream was about the same thing – you have to read it!
Oh this is luscious. Divine, and inspiring. This is a wonderful question to take with me into my Solstice dreamtime.
Much love to you,
e
People whose spare time is people-focused: happier to spend time making their own amusements together than looking at externally-made amusements (TV, etc). People to cook with. People to feed.
Sorry, I haven’t been online so I missed this. I’m glad that you got the nine of cups and hope that your wishes for health and happiness come through 100%. You deserve both of these essentials in life.
“I need them (my tribe) around me all the time, sending me messages of hope and speaking affirmation in my ears. I feel sheepish about it — this constant need for feedback and assistance and the exchange of ideas.”
Tribe. Another good word is clan. My tribe/clan has seriously dwindled over the last few years. I have been making changes in my life that have been controversial. It is amazing how those decisions truly ’shake out’ the real friends/clan mates from the false or insincere.
I need to begin building my clan again ~ to gather my friends, seek out their ears and hearts ~ to build my flagging spirits & strengthen my dreams.
…perhaps along the way we can hold each other up and gain strength from the bonds of the tribes we build…
Thank you, MagPie, for your inspiration. I am going to act today to build my clan. :o)
Blessing for you & yours on the Yule…
I’ve been thinking a lot about my Tribe lately. It’s been shifting and growing over the past year or two. I’ve been pondering how to gather together some of these far-flung kindred spirits, either physically or virtually, and deepen my relationships with them. Right now my connections are wide, which I love. But I also need the depth that usually comes when we identify our “inner circle.” That sounds cliquey, which is not what I mean at all. I’m still not sure how all of this will play out, but I’m trusting that my Tribe and I will figure it out as we go along.
This is a beautiful post as always. In my Tribe I think I need all of those people, but most important, I need to stop being so damned independent and let them in!
I’m wishing you the Tribe you need and some respite in terms of health in 2009.
Dear Tribal Folk,
Oh, I think we need to build some tribes, don’t you? Watch for posts in the new year about how to gather your Soultribe around you. Yes we can!
Emma’s Tribe-Member positions open:
-Cuddlers! (I can never have too many)
-People who force me to be my best self
-People who have “been there”, and want to share
-People for ME to take care of too
-Anyone who has an open mind and an open heart
-I’m sure there are many more….
I liked this post, Rachelle, and I love the image of the shells around the word “Tribe”…
This post reminded me of two summers ago, when I was in the musical “Hair”. The group of characters called themselves a Tribe, and as a cast, we were to become a Tribe as well, and begin to tap the surface of what the word meant. We spent long, 10 to 13-hour days together for 6 weeks, and many nights after rehearsal at the beach, or anywhere else we could talk. It was quite the second family. :)
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